My Job

I've been working in Public Bank for roughly 1 and a half month. Throughout this month of working, I know that this job doesn't suits me or maybe I can say that I don't suit this job. The time is too flexible that I myself can't discipline myself and to put full effort in to it. It's not that I'm blaming on the job but I'm blaming it upon myself. I'm those people who need instructions and guidance to improve. I can say that I'm a fast learner. In Public Bank, for the early few weeks I'm so keen to work and to start the job but unfortunately I here and there whenever I ask about the job they'll tell me " bring in case and I'll teach you " . My perception was, if I know how to bring in case I don't need you to teach me. Man, all I'm asking was all about the product. If I don't know about the product how am I going to approach my customer to bring in some cases?

Some of my friends told me not to give up so easily but I already know the job is not for me. I understand and know that the job will give me a very bright future if I'm willing to stick to it. But come to think about it, I myself know that I'm not a very self discipline people. I know I can't handle this. It's all about time management. I'm really sorry to say that I'm still in those "childish" mindset where I always think of "fun fun fun and fun" . All I need now is a job that will lead me to discipline myself. (I'm trying to say office working hour job)

I'm very lost and unhappy nowadays. Something keep bothering me, which I myself don't know whether was it a crucial problem. I tried to be more confident and to have move EQ to control over my emotion and i'm trying very hard. I can say that I've improved but it's not enough.

“Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.” Please let me try out new way to lead my life to a better life.

Talking to The Moon

Its like so many days and so many nights I've been thinking and thinking of the same problem. Sometimes I just feel like giving up, but I'm afraid that I'll have the biggest regret of my life giving up on the thing that I love so much.

I'm very very lost, hoping for a better and happier day to come. I just want to see her. Although I know seeing her doesn't make anything much different but I'll just feel so calm everytime when I see her. All I hope is to see her.

I know the problem that we're facing seems to be very hard to be settle, but i know I'll try my very best to do anything and everything that i could. I know I want you back. I don't want this relationship to be so VAGUE! I have to improve myself so that it won't happen again.

Came across this song Talking to the Moon by Bruno Mars. It calms me down. nice song .