Today is definitely the worst day of my life. I've made a decision that I could have regret of my life if it doesn't turns right.
I've given freedom to the love of my life that no matter what she does have nothing to do with me. We are no longer attached, we can no longer call ourselves couple.
I've no one to talk to about how down how unhappy how empty i'm feeling right now. All i can do is to write it down here so that i can release it out.
If you are right in front of me right now, I would have hugged you telling you how much I need you how much I loved you how much I missed you even though we seen each other yesterday. The day and night without you makes my life so empty. I felt so tired trying to fake my smile to everyone.
She asked whether am I emo, I told her "nop nop". I wanted to tell her how can I not be emo without having you in my life? I really wish that this is a dream i really wish i could just wake up from the dream and starts all my day waking up in the morning beside you.
I really wish to fix this situation and move on with you continuing to pursue my goal of life which is having you as my wife one day.
I know for now, no matter what I do it doesn't make any changes. We'll just remain as of now. I really hope that this situation will go away as soon as possible and that our love will remain strong as it is.
When you asked what song I'm listening to, I'm actually listening to 爱你的宿命. I really want to sing it out loud to you as the song really represents how I am feeling right now.
I hope you are able to listen to my right now. I know i could not be so selfish holding you back. I know all you need is time for a break to settle you stuffs but please please please your stuffs with me is not settled. We have years and years and years to go to settle our things. It is a never ending story. I wish .....
